this is hard.

So I'm at the point where I'm challenging DGLs to lead next year. I'm meeting up with them to make sure they understand what is expected of them so that they can pray about being a DGL. It's hard. Like, I thought it would be ok and wouldn't be too difficult - and in some ways it isn't. But in other ways it's so totally hard. Like, I met with someone today who was like "I really wont take my DG sharing" and basically didn't really explain why. She didn't say it was because she inherently disagreed with it... I dunno. It kind of went downhill from there in some ways. I think I salvaged the convo (or God did) and I did learn some things about how we can improve the ministry and how we communicates its purpose to people, but yeah. It was kind of discouraging. It made me feel like I'm going to just be a giant screw up and wont be able to protect people from the hurt that in some ways is inherent with the ministry. Not everyone can be a DG leader. But we CAN communicate that we value other contributions just as much, so that the ppl who aren't DGLs still feel valued. Yeah.. so definitely a process of learning as I expected. But I definitely feel pretty darn lost. This is a good thing because I have to be so dependent on God. It's just scary because I feel like I have so much potential to hurt a lot of people and do a lot of damage. I have to trust that God is going to fix what I break.